During my nap, I had the usual to-do list run down squirreling through my thoughts. One thought, in particular, did not give me the usual anxiety hell. I still don’t have my license and my 21st birthday is coming near. I could give in to the panic that another year has gone by and I …
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Today, I stayed in bed an hour after my alarm went off. While in bed, I turned towards my desk, seeing it covered in a couple of dishes from last night. I stared at it for a minute as my mind went on an on about how much it doesn’t want to get up and …
A few moments ago, I cried. It’s yet another week where I feel off balance. Things don’t feel right in some areas of my life. I don’t feel the same academic fervor as I once did. That has died since the end of high school. I feel like I’m unravelling a lot more this year. …
The cement that is self-sabotage has thickened and hardened in my head. There are no thoughts, I’m just staring blankly at the computer screen. It’s that time of life again – who I once was must become obsolete. Today, I want to talk about compliments, in particular being called “smart”. It’s a deceptively endearing phrase, …
I think I was overconfident. Not in an obnoxious way, but in a low key, inward “I’ve got this” way. I was thrilled to be able to join a team that desired to be a role model for college students. I was eager. I took notes, asked questions, and met some pretty cool people. I …
This morning, I struggled to get up. I woke up a little before 8 am and just went through my phone aimlessly. The thrill of moving forward with my life has worn off. It’s not that I don’t have goals. There’s a vision board across the room from where I am sitting now. It’s not …
I’m 20 years old living at home, unemployed with no driver’s license. There are plenty of reasons to feel shitty about that. And, I think there is nothing wrong with feeling like this. Pain allows you to be honest about where you are. This year so far I’ve realized a few important lessons: Preparation is …
“Run, run, run as fast as you can, you can’t catch me I’m the gingerbread man.”– loose paraphrase from the fairly well known tale of The Gingerbread Man I enjoy running. It helps me clear my head. But, it has a time and a place, and recently, I’ve been running away from responsibility. Today, I …
// reposted from August 10th, 2019 I’m currently stuck at an airport to catch a redeye. It happened because of a 20 minute delay from my initial departure. Yeah, it sucks. I won’t be arriving until a day later than intended. So, I’m deciding to take the time to write. Today, it’s about patience. My …
I grew up in a religious household. I was taught to pray and rely on a being outside of myself. It was comforting to believe that I didn’t have anything to worry about because someone else is taking care of things. As I grew up, I was exposed to different perspectives which made me question my judgment. For …