During my nap, I had the usual to-do list run down squirreling through my thoughts. One thought, in particular, did not give me the usual anxiety hell. I still don’t have my license and my 21st birthday is coming near. I could give in to the panic that another year has gone by and I still have not achieved my goal. I could try to analyze why over and over does it have to be me that takes so long to get this rite of passage. But, then it hit me, maybe there is a fantastic reason why this is happening.
Maybe, I need to dream bigger.
I think for a lot of us when we’re trying to achieve a goal we become stale in waiting. The goal is still vague in our heads and sure, we are working towards it but we become tunnel vision and just repeat mindlessly what we want. For a while, I thought just praying or manifesting for a license while just finding anyone to teach me would be enough to receive it. It turns out that is not the case, at least for now. I need to think harder. I need to start believing I deserve more than that, not because I’m inherently better than everyone else, it’s the fact that everyone has the audacity to dream that big and so should I.
Today, I’m challenging myself to write a letter to myself about how badly I want it. I’m going to describe the places that I want to go to not just obligations to fulfill like going to work. I want to not just ask for a working car, but one that suits my needs and that I can enjoy and cherish. Even leading to this, I don’t want to just ask for driving lessons, I want to be taught by someone who truly cares and believes that I can drive on the road. These needs and many more are something I will start believing.
There is benefit in being wary, one can reset and dream for higher, reigniting that desire. Before you know it, the goal you so desire is just around the corner.